As the days get closer to Faith's one year birthday I can't help but relive all those moments last year. Over the last few weeks I have spent sleepless nights remembering all the pain I felt at this time last year. I have been up for a few hours now just laying in bed thinking, wondering, and remembering my daughter. Memories I wouldn't give up for anything. It is all the time I had with her, it wasn't nearly enough, but I am thankful for that time. This has been one of the hardest years of my life but it has also been one of the most growing time of my life too. I was reading in Hebrews yesterday and I read a verse about how Jesus learned obedience through suffering, of course He was perfect at it, but I am learning that too through this suffering. I have spent most of this year grieving, we grieved the lose of our first baby, we grieved my health, and also not conceiving when we wanted to. I look back and reflect on this last year and I do see a lot of pain but if it wasn't for all that pain and sadness I wouldn't have experienced the growth through it all that I did. I still suffer and still have pain but I handle it so differently now.
For those of you who read this and pray, could you please say some prayers for Bryce and I over the next couple days. Pray that Tuesday would bring healing for our hearts. I know it will be a hard day. We could not have gotten through this year without all of your support and those prayers that lifted us up so high through all of this. Thank you! Love to you all!
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