Baby update #4

26 weeks now and feeling really good! I am finally getting a belly picture uploaded, we have been horrible at taking pics, sorry. Baby likes to be the most active in the middle of the night:) I guess he or she is trying to prepare me for when it is wanting up in the middle of the night to eat. My appetite has sure increased over the last week. I haven't had any weird cravings but I am hungry all the time!  We have slowly been getting the baby's room set-up. I still don't know how I want to decorate it so I have a feeling it is going to be awhile before it is done. I know for sure it is going to have elephants and giraffes, so that's a start:) 

Faith's day and Baby update #3

Thank you all for the prayers and thoughts on Tuesday! Bryce and I got to spend the day together and we baked Faith a cake and took flowers to her grave. I attempted to make her a heart shaped cake with this bundt pan that I have and it was a disaster. Emily, if you are reading this, I STILL can't seem to get that pan to work! It made me laugh thinking of how many cakes I will probably ruin over the years being a mom. I look forward to that! The rest of day was hard but good at the same time. We felt peace in remembering her and that day last year that changed our lives forever.

Now for another Baby update:

I am now 24 weeks and 4 days! I wasn't feeling very good this week and started cramping really bad the last couple days but it was nothing to worry about, apparently it's just gas or something. The joys of pregnancy:) But I had an appt. yesterday and it went really well. I passed my glucose test with flying colors!! I was a little worried becasue of all the cake I had consumed the day before:). Got to hear the heartbeat and had my uterus measured and all is going well! Baby is on the move throughout the whole day and I love every minute of it! It is so entertaining for Bryce and I, we are glued to my belly constantly, waiting for the next move. 

Sorry no picture of the belly, I will take some this weekend and get them posted.

I am now going to finish up my coffee and enjoy starring at all the snow we received last night! Finally winter has made it's appearance in Montana! I love it!

Remembering Faith

As the days get closer to Faith's one year birthday I can't help but relive all those moments last year. Over the last few weeks I have spent sleepless nights remembering all the pain I felt at this time last year. I have been up for a few hours now just laying in bed thinking, wondering, and remembering my daughter. Memories I wouldn't give up for anything. It is all the time I had with her, it wasn't nearly enough, but I am thankful for that time. This has been one of the hardest years of my life but it has also been one of the most growing time of my life too. I was reading in Hebrews yesterday and I read a verse about how Jesus learned obedience through suffering, of course He was perfect at it, but I am learning that too through this suffering.  I have spent most of this year grieving, we grieved the lose of our first baby, we grieved my health, and also not conceiving when we wanted to. I look back and reflect on this last year and I do see a lot of pain but if it wasn't for all that pain and sadness I wouldn't have experienced the growth through it all that I did. I still suffer and still have pain but I handle it so differently now.

For those of you who read this and pray, could you please say some prayers for Bryce and I over the next couple days. Pray that Tuesday would bring healing for our hearts. I know it will be a hard day. We could not have gotten through this year without all of your support and those prayers that lifted us up so high through all of this.  Thank you! Love to you all!