Faith Marie

I have been wanting to start my own blog for awhile now but I haven't made the time to do it. Now that my life has taken a sudden 180 degree turn I feel now is as good a time as any. Most of you know that Bryce and I were expecting our first baby in May 2011. Having a baby was something I had wanted for awhile, Bryce on the other hand wanted to wait. It was our 3rd year anniversary that he presented a book to me called The Best Foods to Eat When You Are Pregnant. God was tugging at his heart to rethink starting a family. We started trying the end of August and it didn't take more than a month to find out we were expecting our first baby! The joy was indescribable. Things were going along as they should, I was sick pretty much everyday for a month in the beginning and my belly and appetite started to grow. I was about 13 weeks when things started to turn. I started having signs of miscarriage and was in and out of the doctors for two months. It was Christmas Eve that things were really bad and I was finally diagnosed with Placenta Previa. After that visit to the doctor I decided to cut my hours at work and start taking it really easy. And a week later I would find out after another doctor visit that my water had broke and that I could go into labor at any moment. Fear had taken over Bryce and I. We were devastated, why was this happening? I was put on bed rest and just had to pray and hope that I didn't lose what little fluid I had left and that I didn't go into labor. Two weeks passed and on Monday January 17th I went into labor. I lost all my fluid and I was starting to get an infection in my uterus and if the baby didn't get delivered soon I could lose all chances of ever having a baby again. Faith Marie Bennett was born at 8:42pm that evening weighing 14oz and 10 inches long. Being in labor with her is something I will cherish for the rest of my life. I was supposed to have a c-section but God allowed me to deliver naturally. We didn't know what we were having so it was so exciting to find out that for 21 weeks I was carrying a little girl, she was perfect! Bryce and I got to spend about 10 minutes with our angel before she passed. Those 10 minutes were truly unforgettable. Bryce and I have learned so much going through this. We have learned about God's control and His will for our lives. We are still very much grieving losing Faith but we know that we will see her again in heaven. Pastor Steve Strutz did her memorial and gave us three things we need to do through this: lean into the suffering and embrace it, lean into each other and most important lean into God. I couldn't agree with him more. And we are doing just that.  We are so amazed at all the prayers and support we have received through this. We are getting cards in the mail constantly from friends and family but also from people that we don't even know but have been through this similar situation. We have had meals everyday for over two weeks, we are getting phone calls and text messages of encouragement, we have flowers brightening every room in our house and we have had company come and just be with us to listen, talk and laugh. We have felt every single prayer and have seen God in every blessing given to us. We are so grateful for everything, no words could be enough to express that.